I lost my husband over three years ago. I was a stay at home mom. My friends all have their own lives and I don't fit in anymore.
I feel lost and alone my in-laws hate me because I've started to date again. My husbands co-workers won't speak because of legal stuff that went on after his death.
My sons only speak when they have to it seems, they don't want to upset their grandparents. So now it's just small talk with the boys. I try not to get into anything that will upset them and cause me not to see them.
I hadn't work until two years ago and now I'm laid off and can't find another job. I only have a high school diploma and college I just can't handle. I don't know how I will be able to make ends meet once my husbands money runs out.
I've thought about ending my life when my money runs out. I know my sons will be OK (they are in their early twenty's).
Every time I try to talk to someone I get told to snap out of it, things will work out. But I can't see anyway it can possibly work out.
Comments by: Anonymous
Your path is waiting for you to step. It's there waiting. You may start small but you will get where you are meant to go and accomplish what you are meant to accomplish.
Dear Lost,
Your family needs you more than you know. They probably feel the same as you. Don't want to say something to upset you. You are not here without a reason.
I am sure you will agree that life passes fast and you will be reunited with your love.
Would you want your family to give up? Would you want your love to give up?
No, I know you wouldn't. You are a strong woman and I know that your love is still with you, waiting. You my dear friend still have somethings to do. You may be here for five minutes or 20 years, who knows.
You are NOT ALONE, this I promise you! Please listen to me very carefully. Learn as much about dreams as you can, how to remember, record and self analyze them. Do not follow dream dictionaries. Look within for the answers to your dreams.
I know for a fact that they give messages and foretell of future events. Please if you don't believe me try and find out for yourself. Perhaps your love may even be able to send you messages. You will learn to see that there is a plan that you are living, a destiny, your own destination.
Seek some help for you and your family, via grievance counselor. This will help you/family to open up and talk about things.
It is important because your love's life played a very important role and should not be set aside.
My heart is with you and your family.
I too am a house wife. My love is still here but I speak with him now and again about the time we must physically part. I feel the pain now and have explained to him that I need to create a life of my own as well in case he goes first.
I am not nothing, you my friend are not nothing. You have a very very important part to play and it starts with your family.
You will find your strength. Close your eyes and feel your loves strength. It's there, the energy. You can feel it right? Then it's there,it's with you, use it!.
Please learn about your dreams, I promise you that you will not regret it. It opens up a whole new world that we ignore and call Deja Vu.
Warmest Wishes.
Don't snap out of it... snap into it!
by: Anonymous
Read the book, The Voice of Knowledge by Don Ruiz and I'm 99% sure you will change the way you think about everyday life.
Please don't give up by: Anonymous
I don't know what you are going through right now, as I've never been married, I haven't had kids, and I don't know what it's like to lose a loved one. But I do know what it's like to want to die.
I wish I could provide greater words of wisdom. All I can say is that you are not alone. At one time or another, someone has experienced the kind of pain that you are going through. Already I admire you for your strength and your bravery.
So please don't give up now.
One thing that I tell myself over and over again: your heart is truly the greatest instrument to guide you through this life, for even if it breaks it keeps on beating.