by Carol
(Oregon)
I have this social anxiety disorder, but I try so much to hide it,I don't want to go out and see people, I don't want them to judge me, my family or my other half.
I don't have a job right now and feel that I have no reason to go out except to spend money that I don't have. I don't want to go out into new areas for the fear of being rejected by others.
I have people in my life that have actually dropped me as a friend due to the fact I don't like to do new things and this is hurting my kids now. I don't want them to feel like I do.
I hate being this way, I think it's a matter for self confidence, which I have from time to time but for the most part, I am very unsure of myself.
I don't like where I live, my house is so old, I am told I was the only one who wanted the house, not true. I hold a lot of resentment inside and I am just not in a good place.
What Do You Want - by: Fatimah Musa
Hi Carol,
You have written so many things about what you don't want, what you don't have and what you hate. Did you notice that?
Have you thought about what you DO Want?
Yes, what do you want? What do you have? And what do you like or love?
You can start changing the way you talk to yourself and about yourself. This is something that you ought to do first, before you can make more changes in your life.
Do try.
FM