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44 And Starting Completely Over

by Mark
(Woodbridge, Va)

My life has completely deteriorated to this point, struggling to survive in a world where all was at arms reach.

NOW... I can't even see light at the end of this tunnel. Alright there is light but I move towards it and it seems to move further away.

Married at 23, divorced at 24 with child. Life moved on and I knew my responsibility to my son.

The next 15 years continued growth in professional and personal life.

At age 37 second marriage into ready made family of 4 children plus my own.

This last 4 years till wife steps out and cheats on me.

I stick it out in hopes of making things work for the next 2 years only to find out she has done it again and has been for the past year and a half.

Shit! How stupid of me to think it wouldn't happen again.

Now I live with a long time friend with no job, no money, a car that's about to be repossessed, a feeling that the long time friend it wondering what the hell has he let into his home.

And depression is what I try to deal with in what seems like every hour.

Some how I know deep down I can not keep going like this and I will get myself back.